When You Look At Me [Private Rp]

Zenith
Talori Brewer

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It had been a long few months since the Winter Solstice debacle. Though the horse had only lived within Torrine’s borders for a few weeks, it seemed much longer. A blessing in disguise the emperor had called it, and though at times the appaloosa had a hard time seeing it, they tended to believe it. Hawkeye was their brother after all, and the brewer couldn’t imagine the older horse knowingly lying to them.

Anxiety and intense pain had kept Zenith practically home bound since they moved into the simple hut they now called home. To call it a hut was almost amusing to the copper horse, as it was much larger than their previous shop and cottage combined. Potions and brews laid scattered about the shelves and workbench as the appaloosa stared at the window, counting the unfamiliar faces that passed. It was a tactic they’d used many times before in an attempt to ground themself and keep the darker thoughts and memories that tended to be stirred up by the recent chaos at bay. It worked well enough, and Zenith’s anxiety began to wane slightly as they slowly lost themselves in the monotony of it all. That was, until they spotted a familiar figure among the endless sea of meandering faces.

Farsight.

The appaloosa’s heart almost jumped out of their chest. Zenith hadn't seen their betrothed since they’d entered settlement. They’d almost started thinking that the young pegasus had chosen to flee Aquore instead, as they knew the speckled stallion was a flighty creature who greatly valued his freedom above most things. A smile crept onto the spotted horse’s face as they awkwardly hobbled out the door, not bothering to grab the cart or braces that made long distances and long days on their feet possible.

“Farsight!” They called, relief and excitement evident in their voice. “You’re here, you’re really here!” Their voice cracked slightly as they stumbled a bit on awkward legs, attempting to reach the stallion without falling face first into the cobblestone street. “Where have you been? I was worried...I thought…” Zen’s words caught in their throat, not wanting to offend the younger horse. Though their engagement had been arranged, and their relationship had a rocky start, it was safe to say that (at least on Zenith’s part) love had slowly begun to blossom. "Never mind...You're here, that's all that matters." Nickering softly, Zenith pressed their forehead against the stallion's cheek.

Zenith
Talori Brewer

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"Sorry Zenith... I was having some trouble coping with everything. I kept to myself for a while, I spoke to a few here, but I hardly moved. I'm so sorry... I should have came to find you sooner. But I'm here to stay. Like I said before I'm not leavin you again."

The copper horse nodded knowingly as the pegasus spoke. The last couple weeks had been hard, and there were many adjustments to be made for all Talorians, none of which promised to be easy. Zenith's anxieties began to quell a bit as they grounded themself in the familiarity and safety Farsight provided. He was a breath of fresh air in a suffocating time.

"It's alright Farsight." The appaloosa murmured, gently leaning against the younger equine for support. "I understand...I haven't left home myself. Solitude, though it can be lonely at times, has a tendency to present you with clarity as well...something I have found I am greatly in need of at this time. I will admit though, I am so happy to see you here. I've missed you terribly, and my concern for you only doubled it."  The horse whispered, smiling gently at the young stallion. Time almost seemed to stop for the young horse, standing there with the one they had come to love. It had crept up on them, quietly and slowly, but it was a feeling that Zenith welcomed with an open heart. For years, the horsehad pushed aside thoughts of romance or loving, believing themself unworthy...and then they'd met Farsight, and though Zenith had been quite skeptical of the younger stallion, he'd since then far surpassed any expectations the appaloosa had of the speckled pegasus.

 "How are you Zenith? Have you been well?" Farsight's voice broke into their thoughts, startling them slightly.

"Aye, I suppose in some ways... Though in others, not so much." The copper horse cringed slightly as they shifted position. "But we should continue this talk inside. Please, come in." Zenith flashed a smile as they slowly hobbled along, leading the other equine to their home. They had much to talk about, but the conversations at hoof were better suited for a more private environment than the middle of the street.

"You know you can speak freely to me as ever Zenith I wont judge at all, and what is spoken between us stays with us."

Zen nodded softly, settling down on a large pile of blankets and pillows in the corner, their joints finally giving in to the pain and fatigue that plagued them. Grabbing two potions off the shelf, Zenith looked to Farsight, motioning for the young stallion to make himself comfortable as they quickly gulped down the potions. The appaloosa hoped they would stave off the pain and anxiety that were quickly overwhelming them, but as with all potions, it was luck of the draw. Thankfully, the copper horse was fairly sure this last batch they'd made was a good one.

Sighing heavily, the appaloosa looked to Farsight once more, studying him carefully as he settled in. He made grandiose claims and promises that he could be trusted and would never leave them...but doubt still clung in the recesses of Zenith's mind. They were scared...terrified even of what the younger horse would think...what he'd do... but they desparately needed someone to talk to. Taking a shaky breath, the young horse began to speak.

"I..I don't know where to begin with all this...so please bear with me." They paused, trying to decide how to continue. "I haven't slept well in days. Aside from the general anxiety, flashbacks, and pain that I expected to come of this, my nights have been riddled with nightmares more terrifying than I can explain...I feel like...Like I've angered the gods somehow, and they want to punish me..." Zenith paused once more, tears threatening to spill down their cheeks as they recalled the figures from their dreams. "Not that I wouldn't understand it...I'm a sinful creature in the eyes of Cacsade..." The horses words came out more as sobs than anything, as they pulled thier legs close to their body, curling up in a tight ball. "I'm scared Farsight.... I feel like something is going to happen to me... and I don't want whatever it is to hurt you too..."//